:::another chapter

Monday, April 30, 2007

escape

too much time on your hands makes one restless, and when i get restless, my mind tend to wander into the darker unknown. the curiosity that sometimes blurs the line of the norm. yet again, who in the world sets the norm?!

it's scary how i can come up with such things in my mind by just starring into space. i wonder about what it is to lose it all? to completely surrender yourself to the choice of poison, to completely be taken over by a feeling so overwhelming it justs knocks you over. i wonder what it is to bleed and watch the blood drip, passing the point of pain, i wonder what it is to drive so fast til you're just about to crash, then jamming the brakes and stopping it all. i wonder what it is to have your life flash right across your face.

perhaps it'll feel great, to be able to get away from things. get away from having to do what people expect of you. get away from constant bugging and breathing down your neck. i absolutely loathe that. i realize ive developed quite an intolerance of being bugged. stress i can manage. but constant bugging and nagging really gets to me. if i say i'll get it done, then chill. it WILL be done. im honestly quite sick and tired of having been told what to do. i need to get away asap. and everytime this happens i just feel like surrendering myself over to the lurking wonders of my mind.

it's almost like taking a walk into a dark unknown with curiosity luring you in, fear so enticing that it bites. there's so many things i have to get done. yet ive completely no mood to do anything. not even planing my holiday or my party for that matter. it's becoming a burden. where's the joy?! there's no more spontaneity anymore. it's sad. i need a drink. get high smelling some substance and dance away like there's no tomorrow.

sometimes i seriously wanna give up.
give up everything im doing now.
absolutely everything
yet it kills me that im such a stubborn ass that wont give up without a fight.
i guess im dying from the fight then..

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Sunday, April 29, 2007

crazyyyyy

jolene+me+jon+mambo music= madness +chaos+tons of laughter
the band with the single word song performed. amazingly the song only contained one word, "hello". it was nuts! haha..

we happily blasted mambo music and jon was high on dunno what dancing away. damn funny. just how much i miss work! plus lots of pple came by, joel, dixon matthaias and all. cool..well.. u cant exactly call that work! tk and family came by too!

nicole saluting!

jolene and nicole

me, jo and jon who was trying to pose..

doing the YMCA i suppose. this kid's high on god knows what!

jon the newbie.
i swear it's a freakin small world. u know what i mean.

craziness all the way

i tell u the world's a damn damn small place. seriously. not the first time this happens. the past is the past, but it will sure come back to haunt u! haha.. was a damn funny ride home..

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

relief. irritated. rahh.

yay! thank god it's finally over
i guess relief has taken over every other possible feeling
come to think of it, there's a rather large possibility that i will do pretty badly, cuz i referred to the wrong era for Virginia Woolf's writing! great. just great. and i thought she was from Post Mod, not Mod. damn. pray and hope that it'll be ok. i sure cant afford to do badly.

ah. heck. that's worry for another day. have faith in God and believe it'll all be fine. it'll always be fine. for now there are other pressing things waiting.
but just as equally frustrating. why?!

why is it so freakin difficult to set a date?! ive got like a million and one ideas, yet no execution because there is no date. damn. im irritated.
highly irritable. probably due to the lack of sleep.

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Monday, April 23, 2007

pictures of the past

ken sent me the pics we took on his holga at sum's 21st party! i love the effects! ok.. even if it ws by accident. looks decomposed! cool..

ken & daryl

sat & ken

i want my lomo lc-a!!!!

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

21st
with the best people you can grow up with

sebas girlfriend, kelly, jas and jon
missing from the picture: mike!! cuz someone was late!

future lawyers, engineers, doctors?! and tai tais! :)

me and my champagne cake
 walking by the peer after dinner..

dinner with the group. love u guys. thanks for the cool rings! and the balloon! which none of u helped to carry!! omg! had fun. we'll go for drinks and dessert proper again! next sunday! when im done with exams and sch! bah.. haha.. the card's lovely.. and yes.. i'll still be the same. church is not spelled as c-l-u-b! haha.. i only enjoy loud music, dance and maybe the blinking lights in a dark room. haha.. see.. no harm done!
u guys make me laugh always. and i DO NOT whine. never la pls! it's called getting things done. hehe.. love u guys!
thanks again!

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zouk's sweet 16th,
my 21st!

tk gave us invites to Zouk's 16th Bash, so we all went down to celebrate. it was damn packed. but was pretty fun though.. we felt like sardines initially. and took hours before we managed to squeeze our way to members..

i love the invite
some fake id!

lennie's first zouk
ure damn funny babe! i love ya!

tk and us!!

mel and the cupcakes!
she totally jumped up when she saw the table full of food!

jo and lingling

crazily happy

jo and mr skeleton!

dancing the night away at phuture!
omg.ur phone's camera's goood!
i love this pic, only! hehe.. :P

at supper!

roy and the new scoopy jon drove us to um.. his place and jo's place for kuay chup. was damn funny. the guys were just crazy. drove up 10 storeys of car park to drive down cuz it was too high up to walk! haha.. thank god there werent any road blocks! if not roy would be dead!

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21st with my lovelies!
emerald hill no.5

what i woukd call a hobo's bar. it was fun! had to climb up to sit on the somewhat shisha look-alike carpet thing. it was the first ive eaten those peanuts with the shells in a few years. and we all got a shock when the waiter came to clear the shells. he just took the bowl and threw all the shells on the floor! and we thought the floor was littered by people. haha. they've got gooood chicken wings!

my lovelies sharon & shin!
love u guys! thanks for the nice dinner!!
pls get well soon, dont fall sick!
we'll go corduroy for desert soon!

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pre 21st at Wala's

eic, some japanese beers, nonsense, and bangkok trip planning. which we happen to leave behind at walas. so it was more like no planning. i need a girl to go!! anyone wanna come?? it was pretty ok.. the crowd was a tad bit dead though..

me, daryl, ken, dior, tim and jon

the sweet pair, ken & dior!

lovely black and whites! always rock..

supper after at Al Azzah was damn funny. dunno what Bomb Prata. but it tasted great! really hope the bangkok shopping spree comes through..

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Friday, April 20, 2007

(Red)

look what came in the mail on sunday!!
introducing(Red)an addition to my apple family!
alright, so im like a few days slow.. can't blame me, it's the exams! bah..
this made me much happier though.. been wanting it for quite a while..plus it's for a good cause! AIDS Foundation!!

like all babies, (Red) needed clothes! so i bought him THIS!
haha.. it's so cute i love it!shopping's excellent therapy. totally takes the stress away! i bought 2 new cardis for bryan again! but it's pretty cheap after my discount!! at this rate i should just buy his whole shop! :P

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sweets by the quaint l'll corner

saints: josh, ben. sat, shihui(my belly!) & i

Happy 21st my Smelly Belly!! Love ya lots!!

smitten by sweets of all sorts at Corduroy & Finch celebrating my belly's 21st! desserts were great! super super sinful!! i probably need to run for a few more hours!! the guys were going on about their Vietnam trip. pretty cool i'd say. i need to get out of singapore too.  for a moment i actually thought exams were over. darn reality! it was quite a fun time though. it just seems like last week that we were all slacking by the caf, skipping classes and talking nonsense. now it's slacking at some cafe, trying to skip work and uni and still talking nonsense! haha.. i just love it! thanks alot for the treat babe!

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

OMG!! i want THIS!!!!
or a holga cgfn would be good too!! :D

ok so i should be studying.. bahh..

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Sunday, April 15, 2007

the sunday usual

dinner with dean and daddy again.. it was koean tonight, at this quiet little korean place tucked behind raffles hotel. can't remember the name. it was all japish/koreanish with the wooden seats and dividers..

starters
looks weird and foreign, but tasted great!

we got bored waiting for the food so we took lots of photos!
with daddy's hp too. so now his wallpaper has our huge faces! haha..

one of the reasons why u'll never be bored with dean..
cant blame the kid who spent a year of his childhood being Mr Bean. haha. this cracks me up.
silly but funny nut!

omg! look at the resemblance!!

trying to do some weird expression..

daddy..
looks damn old wit specs la..
but tt's his disguise for driving after drinks!

dinner was good.. something different for a change. cuz we realize we always end up having chinese or thai. but according to dean he claims that there's a decomposing taste in korean food. weird! but yea.. preserved stuff are decomposing what! :P

:::

omg.. i cant believe i actually studied almost 7hrs straight at Starbucks today. madness!
and ive formulated a long list of things i want and want to do! and a whole lot of things i could be doing!
studying's a waste of time. seriously.

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

photo booth

i found some photos of dean and i amusing ourselves with the photo booth. think it was earlier this year? or last? cant remember. and for those who don't know, dean is my brother. yes, my parents have no imagination to come up with a different name. haha..

hehe.. i like this! cracks me up!

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