:::another chapter

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

we had a freakin 4hr break to kill.. and we got bored..

Entry by Angelina Chung Li Na

Angel hates the beach.
Angel hates chinese speaking cheena piaks!
Angel loves her happy popish music!
lalalalalalala..

*Angel prances off to another world...

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Monday, August 28, 2006

simplicity

why do i feel a sudden draw to u, a slight tinge of absence when ure not here. u make things too good to be real, too real to comprehend for that matter. it's all going away soon.. like waking up from a dream that u try so hard to continue dreaming. and the weird thing is that it makes u wonder sometimes, does it even exisit? or is it, like what freud says, a part of your subconscious state that youre not aware of? i thought ive gotten out of this thing, surpassing the ability to be emotionless, to function as most human beings would want to function, eliminating all the negativity.

but u gave me butterflies in my tummy once again.

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

yay! my mac's up and working! but it still lacks the pretty fonts and pics and lots of stuff! and i cant seem to dl any fonts! raH! help.. my 4hr break on tues wont be tt boring after all..

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Friday, August 25, 2006

what a bummer!

i thought i was gonna be on time for class today.. like i actually woke up earlier and had time to watch a little Oprah on tele.. then i realize i had to email the 222 crap so tt got me late.. and when i left the house.. i realize i for got to bring my hp.. so daddy had to turn back and get it.. and by the time i figured i'll reach school half the lesson will be gone.. and daddy was feeling sleepy so he's gonna take a nap now before sending me later for the next tut.. and im here killing time. how crazy is that?!

it's a friday.. and yea..ive yet to decide what to do.. but i think im gonna go for cell. it's been way to long since i last went. but see.. there's like the nus law bash tonight and then there's going out.. so yea.. argh..i hate decisions..

oh no.. Com Hist quiz is coming and im still at darwin.. argh.. gotta start reading.. but now. more music!

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

ive decided!!!!

yea.. after a long pondering and fuss and confusion over all the nunbers and specs..ive decided im gonna get the black mac book! this friday! yay! rocks.. i hope it lasts..

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

i think i got bored..
so it's back to school now..

gotta find something that will keep my interest..

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Monday, August 21, 2006

random words during service..

flamboyant, exaggerated
self-patronizing, unlimited
drifting away, yet constantly being brought back
animated and looney, he's kinda whack

heavy lids, sleep's catching up on me
yet 1 sms from you, makes my eyes sprakle and gleam
these words im hearing makes perfect sense
but the thoughts luring, are way more enticing

ridiculously evocative, perceptively futile

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scribbles during lect..

summer vacation in paris
seems completely like a dream
too real for reality
but paris came to me

link darwin, marz and freud
flamboyant, yet gets your mind working
evaluating, re-evaluating
who knows what's right?

decisions decisions..
mac or pc? stay put or fly overseas?
finally doing what i like
perhaps a step closer to my goal

scribbles full of nonsense
it's amazing i can sit through 3
hours passing, mambo tonight?
amazingly still un-drained

escapism, bliss..

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some random photos i forgot to post..

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zhimei and the coconut..

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jon! after svc at adam..

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the idiot monsta and the rah monsta!

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zhimei's last day at work..

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

dirty little secrets

friday night dinner wasnt really what i tought it would end up to be. normally we'll end up ay some cafe/restaurant.. but it's a nice change. ben brought us down to holland drive to try the xo fish soup... which was pretty good... it's fun cuz it was all hot and perspiry in the open, like some kopitiam at the bottom of some hdb. hilarious cuz it was the completely opposite of what nic had in mind. as he puts it, it's economy food. but it was fun.. and they had durians.. it's nuts..i still dont get how pple can stand the smell.. it really smells of garbage and tons of stinky stuff..

chillout at Harry's was fun. thanks to nic's recomendation, i found myself a nice drink, which i would most probably get again.. midori sour.. and his strawberry dikri or however u spell it was pretty nice too.. unfrotunately ben's 'yellow bird' ended up tasting like cought medicine, which really sucked so to not let things go to waste.. we played the usual "i never". which turned out pretty well and fun, plus lots of laughter and juicy secrets.. it must be the alcohol.. but yea.. was one of the most fun chillout sessions we've had.

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zhuo and her camera

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us girls..

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me and nickie the hot stud, as he puts it..

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all hot after dinner..

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a rare find: nic at a zhi-cha.. haha..

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boys will be boys..

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authentic neighbourhood dinner..

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zhuo!

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love the drinks.. loved the company even more..

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nickie len and bernie

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drinks at harry's

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

so what happens..

so what happens if u find out things you're not suppoe to know. what happens if it's things you don't wanna know?!

we are constantly challenging new ideas everyday, constantly evaluating and re-evaluating on others perception or our own for that matter. then how do we ever know what's correct?

ok.. so some random ramblings off the top of my head.. Com history bout Darwin's Theory got me thinking.. i actually like that class.

sch's been quite a drag. especially when u find out that your friends.. or should i say friend happily ditch you without telling. and someone else can say that yeah she really did ditched you. perhaps it's not intentional.. i dont know. but humans are selfish in nature so i cant say anything about that. being in sch really forces you to be your own person. perhaps that's why they call uni a prelude to working life. but working life's been fun for me so.. oh well. but at this point of time it's sad to see how plastic people are, especially people who u thought are your friends, or even people who are your friends now.

but then again, things in my own little world kinda rocks so i cant give a shit.

flying to paris would have a whole new meaning now..

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Monday, August 14, 2006

a little bit more.

technically my hols just ended, and yours is ending. but it seems like everything's just begun.

u said i should fly to paris, ive always wanted to do that.. way before u even said it. but now, flying to paris will be so much better.

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

hey saylee!

um.. only got these 3 leh.. how?! the colour looks nice than the photos! yep yep.. all from fornarina. i think the dress from potion's nicer. sorry!

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military top

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thick belt

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matellic skirt tt can be worn as tube

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tonight..
tonight was.. doesnt seem real at all. im still unsure if tonight actually took place. it's like way too good to be true.. and i cant even think straight right now. it's all a blur.. well not quite really.. it's like my holidays has just begun.. great.

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

ive got butterflies in my tummy again! :)

im happy happy happy!

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

mesmerizing eyes

i could just sit there with you and let the night pass. i think i might just feel the butterflies in my tummy again. even though it was 1am and i was dead tired, i wouldnt mind if that 15mins lasted a whole day. it's definitely a night i'll remember, might just even dream about it when u leave. it's such a battle of reality and what things seem to be. ive been having a horrid day, until late tonight.

maybe u know it, but u probably dont. i doubt i'd even know it myself. little games, playful teases. pretty smile, mesmerizing eyes. sometimes i wished some things would be different, but things are just nice and sweet the way it is. at least for now.

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1st day of school..

and im not looking forward for more. i was early. probably gonna be one of the rare times, considering how many 830 lessons i've got. it felt the same yet different. walking into a hall full of vaguely familiar faces, yet everyone seems like a stranger. it was cold. yeah there were smiles, but definitely not the warmth and sense of belonging u get when u walk into SA. i miss jc. i felt as if there were at least 10 pairs of eyes glaring at me as i walk down the stairs. u know that creepy feeling when u know people are starring, but they think you dont? yea.. but what the heck. university aint really the place to make good friends. not to say there arent, but it's rare.

there were smiles, there were the usual small talk and catch ups. but its hard to feel glad to be back when u know of every 10 smiles, probably 9 are fake. and u know how they pretend to be all nice and friendly when they actually dont give a damn. it's just disgustingly sick. i still cant figure how any human conscience will enable one's mind to formulate such behavior, let alone let it take place. im not saying everyone is like this, in fact there are nice and real pple in school.

i had 2 lects today. met 2 profs. the first one's kinda looney.. yakked a whole lot. and the 2nd one is simply Chopra's evil evil twin from hell. insanely out of her mind. knowledgable, but, and it's a HUGE but, crazy! no talking, no sms, no falling asleep, no toilet breaks even. if tt's not hell, then i dont know what is. like what D said, i feel like im in primary school once again. u know where u sit up so straight and feel so terrified to eveln flinch cuz ure so freakin scared that the teacher will pick on you. i can forget about trying to change tutorial classes, let alone skip it.

im glad school got over really quick! was in such a crappy mood.

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Monday, August 07, 2006

isaiah 43

met up with nickie to watch a movie at noon.. i've got free passes anyway.. we wanted to watch the devil wears prada, but it's not out yet. so ended up watching click instead.. was not too bad.. pretty funny.. both of us were freezing half the time..

we were suppose to meet the rest at 3, but thanks to some pple, mr fillet-o-fish, we had to bum aorund town till like 5! did a bit of window shopping, and saw this blazer/jacket from Armarni i wanted. ok..it's not new or anything. i actually featured it, but now im in need of one for sch so im considering getting it! even though it's like $300! hiaz.. i hope a nice and cheaper one comes along. i dont really care about the brand..as long as the fit is good..

we headed down to raffles city to check out the new basement. it's really pretty. doesnt feel like singapore at all. kinda reminds me of hongkong actually. so yeah..it's cool! all shopping malls should be that classy! killing time with a angsty emo kid aint easy at all! i still love u nic.. hehe.. ure just curly.. u get what i mean.. and angsty.. for today at least! let's go to bangkok soon yeah?!

so after the rest came, it was festival of praise at the indoor stadium. it was good.. but i thought last year's was better, with delirious and all. this year's with don moen and christian city church..CCC was good.. and don moen was too.. but not my kinda thing i guess.. it was pretty well.. country.. yeah.. i felt like i was in a farm with cowboy hats and boots doing the dosy-do or somesort! i guess the older folks enjoyed it. sadly it wasnt as packed as previous years.

late night dinner at selegie macs and dao huay. lots of army talk going on. tanks, amour, guard duty, book-ins and what nots. i really dun get why that's what they talk about. ure in army like 5 days a week, maybe more. and when u get out all u talk about is army?! tt's pretty darn sad i'd say. perhaps tt's the only thing they feel that 'connects' them, but whatever happened to music and other more fun stuff?! so yes.. why? why do army guys mostly yak about army stuff when they hate it so much?! wont they get sick of it? wait.. they already are!

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

my arms hurt..

im not trying to tire myself out, neither am i trying to kill time and ease my boredom, but i just cant seem to understand why my schedule's always so packed.. maybe im like meant to have this kinda lifestyle? i quite enjoy the stress, somewhat, somehow. no im not insane, but yea..it's nice to do stuff and be productive!

my arms hurts like crap from scooping ice cream.. i kinda have gotten sick of ice cream too.. but it's fun working.. esp with princess of the broom, cass, indy and all. haha.. i think they're gonna fire me for playing too much.. but tk loves us! hehe.. it's like a difference experience everytime we work. diff pple, with the usual odd weirdos that cracks all of us up. just like the guy who walked in with those big shiny shades tt u only can see your reflection in. even linglin burst out laughing! and this guy today who freaked me out and almost made me drop my ice cream cuz he sounded just like micheal jackson which was like eeew!

night was fun. served in dl again.. i love the kids so so much. and when they all sing and worship, it's just magical.. just something different when they do it. it makes me happy everytime i help out there. and it's really adorable to see how different the girls and the guys are. the girls are like a picture of obedience. and the guys are just rebels! which is really fun.. they are so completely random sometimes i really wonder what goes through their heads.. and they know what's going on.

i had dinner with jon lin.. u havent changed a bit since years ago dude.. still the cute little geek boy! who, i must add, forgets everything and holds a record of losing wallets! the 2 of us always have problems making decisions.. we walked like up and down hv trying to decide what to eat.. finally settled on crystal jade.. and i cant believe he had century egg. tt is like egg soaked in horse pee or something.. grosss! haha.. dessert at tcc was yummylicious! one of my favourite dessert, dark devotion, which is a warm choc cake with chocolate oozing out from the centre. sinfully delicious!

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Thursday, August 03, 2006

scrolling down and reading what's on the screen, the music i was listening to just suddenly seem to fade away. no it's not that im drifting away from this world again, neither was it the fact that i was too engrossed in what i was reading. i don't know how i suddenly came to this thought, or how it came to me. but it hit me.

have i lost the ability to feel?
forgotten how it is to have your heart race and all. no, not in that "ooh, cute guy" way, but more like really feeling genuinely excited or anxious about something. perhaps ive done such a good job at shutting things out that ive sucessfully voided myself of real feelings. and now it just seem all monotonous. yeah at times i'll be happy, laugh and all, but after that, it's like, so what?

are all these feelings rotating like a cycle, like the monotonous spining of the washing machine.. i really wonder. it's like almost so difficult to recall when did i last felt that pure joy and and a natural high. not feeling relief and released, that i definitely clearly remember when. it's about being happy. the kind of high that sticks and last for weeks, the joy that causes you to want to sing and dance, and when everything else seems to be oblivious to you.

i kinda don't know what's going on with me. well.. i know what im working towards and stuff.. but just some other aspects that i still dont quite get. i used to dislike doing things alone. but now, it's like i cant be bothered. it's always nice to have company, someone to be there.. but that whole ideal thing seems to be like passe..

the only thing that's keeping it there is probably sharing the same silence, lounging in tranquility, and feeling safe in each others presence.

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

addicted..

it's getting to me again.. i cant seem to want to stop working.. partly cuz the company's always great and it's always fun.. working with friends and having friends come find u at work, plus the live band and late night supper.. what's not to love?! oh yeah.. just the cleaning up part.. which i so totally hate.. but otherwise, yeah.. it's great even though u have to work till 1 am..

chickenwings and stingray at supper at newton!

2 days of off, and its scary staying at home not having anything to do.. well not to say nothing in particular.. rather it's more like not having a schedule..

i think im gonna miss working when school starts.. everything's gonna be all monotonous again.. thank god i'm still freelancing.. and doing more stuff now.. which i'll gladly take time off school to do..like my next cover shoot and the Ms Seventeen event! yay! looking forward to that.. im gonna have to style the girls for the fashion show at the event! my first event! cant wait!

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