:::another chapter

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i don't wanna be back..

the 3 days of shopping in bangkok ended just too fast! it was AWESOME! totally! so much so that i'll be happy not coming back. it's the first in quite a while that i feel so drained from shopping! and somehow your cash just disappears. but it rocks! great shopping, great food, and freakin cheap drinks! i really dont wanna be back...

photos will be up soon..

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Friday, February 23, 2007

crazy crazy crazy...

things happen when we get bored...

caught!

everyone turned red and colours went haywire!
edmund must have been drunk!

breaking ALL rules. omg!

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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Sat's Smashing 21st

it was one hell of a party. with the free flowing brewerks beer and some other bottles, by 12 everyone was all high and crazy. with some drunk pple around. scary. guys get pretty crazy when they lose it. serisously. but it was fun. lots of gaying around, crazy smoking pple. and he even got a dj! cool stuff. shall let the pictures do the talking..

smokin start with the birthday boy
sam, me, other sam, dior, ken, sat, justin & josh

sat's little cousin became the star! and there were lots of feeding of cake going around.

crazy sji pple
me, sam, ken, justin, max, dion, other justin
seems like sams and justin's are common names..

more photos with my belly and sherilyn! love u babes!

top centre: the hot pilot jinpeng! are u gonna fly me around in your jet sometime soon?! :)
bottom: i look like an ah-ma in ken's specs.

ATTACK OF THE YELLOW MAN!
he pops up in EVERY photo! happily posing somemore!
goodness...

the party aint over with the saint's tradition: poling!
goodbye to kids for sat. seriously ive never seen anyone so happy getting poles before!

when guys get high and drunk.. the turn gay.
poor sam. but it looks like both sams are enjoying it.

it was a crazy night.
black jack didnt earn me much. thanks to jinpeng and daryl who kept sucking all the money! downstairs people were downing some hard liquor and beer getting all wasted and spouting nonsense.
i hope u guys are alright after puking.

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Monday, February 19, 2007

21
i just won $30+ from blackjack!
and i started with nothing!
awesome.

so im not that big a gambler. think it's like my 2nd time playing.

cards and really smooth scotch whisky rocked the afternoon.

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spills over coffee

isnt starbucks suppose to be green?! or is it all in the festive mood with red straws?

met up with kenneth after dinner last night. was suppose to watch epic movie, but turns out the whole world was in town too. so decided to hang out at starbucks. and took silly photos. and dish out tons of dirt.

ken and his colour changing shirt. cool huh?

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Reunion

dean and i in the cab
this is his supposedly bad-ass face

cute kitty cat i saw at grandma's!

no.. it's not dead.. it was rolling about

The world through the eyes of a 3 year old..
brought to you by Austin

his parents

my ring!

with cousin rachel
i actually like this!:)

dean

his self shot
this boy's gooood..

the auntie who wants to go to zouk this wed.
save me.

austin! the little darling who took all the shots after a 2 min crash course on how to use my cam. cool huh?!

he's only 3 and already one hyper crazy dude who reminds me of kenneth when he's drunk. he kept jumping aroung so much i felt tired for him. and he insisted we are all called popiahs, and he likes to kiss pple. wow. so much for just a 3 year old.

chinese new year's never been that much of my fancy. all the ceremonial pretense and greetings, the typical model question every single aunt is gonna ask you. but this year's wasnt that bad i suppose. seeing everyone gather and play with yusheng was pretty nice. my first proper one in years. with my extended family tt is. of course there's the nagging which gave me a headache and tons of commotion.

headed down to zouk after. it was free entry! but wasnt that fun. phuture was boring. lots of crazy drunk angmos. hopefully this wed will be better.

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Full shift on a friday

crazy babe qiuhong!
love love working with u!

lenise dropped by! i missed u lots babe!

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Sunday, February 18, 2007

the very last of you

in the midst of the monotonous humming of the train engine, the occasional murmur of the already jammed packed train, somehow loneliness seems to creep up on you.leaning against the side panel, i couldnt help but recap the past few months that has just flashed by.

some how everything seems to be new. new people, new faces, new hang outs, new experiences, and of course new feelings. it all seems like blur. everything happens so quickly. i havent even had time to think. perhaps its the work of hormones, the stir of emotions, or just the necessity solitude that everyone needs time to time. whatever it was. i needed to be alone that night. it was one of those times that you just wanna sit alone, take a long ride, i'd drive away if i could, and just space out. letting everything just flow through. therapeutic? definitely. even Astreal playing on my ipod seem to be coming from a distance. sometimes it almost feels almost like astral projection, and you see you self and everyone else around you, other times it like everyone slowly fades away. like ure the only constant.

i sat there quietly, and before i knew it, the thoughts all rushed through my head. every moment from the past months have replayed in my mind. for once, i could take the back seat and watch things unfold. there were so many different thoughts, of which most confused me. i could see the fun i was having, however sometimes it seemed empty. nonetheless, i couldnt help thinking how foolish i was to be happy so easily. perhaps innocence comes with its own price. it's always in the moment that you capture the essence and lose all form of logic. it's only in the moment that u enjoy the essence of what is going on. be it enjoying someone's company, or simply going crazy with people around you. whatever it is, for that particular moment, everything seems to be captured.

moments like these make you smile, even in the midst of confusion.

i smiled.

it was a particularly odd day. or days for that matter. i could be full on a piece of bread. and that would last me the day. i wasnt tired, but i just felt like not doing anything. it's the times that you just wanna sit by the sea alone with someone. anyone for that matter.

so happens that theo was leaving that night. another addition to the sorrow. i'll miss u lots babe. a chance to start completely afresh doesnt come by that often. and watching her walk through the gates, i could only wish and wonder when that would be my turn? it's just the twisted irony of life that when you want something, you'll never get it. and when u finally get it, you begin to not want it. so farewell babe. please come back soon!

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Friday, February 16, 2007

jaded

i understand it all now. everything. well almost. that's what i think. simply put, i dug myself another hole. i just dont get whey is it that everytime things are going on nicely and just when i understand what it is to be happy things just get screwed up. it's damn tiring.

u warn youself of how you'll never ever wanna go close to this situation, yet now you find yourself stuck in the exact same scene. somehow, part of me wanna trash everthing out, let goof everything. but some part just feels like nothingness. indifference. its kinda like feeling numbness. you dont feel like doing anything, dont feel like eating, dont feel like sleeping. nothing.

it's like a huge sign warning you to stay away, but still you'd edge closer and jump.

i'm tired. in every aspect that you can think of. i need to get away.

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Thursday, February 15, 2007

thanks, but no thanks

so much for being confused
i've seen what i needed to see
some things i still dont quite get
perhaps it's just me

closed, locked up
i've decided to give up
then why does it seem like
its all gonna go back to confusion in just a couple of days?

i hate the mind games.
hate the guessing
but life itself is an irony
what fun is there without some complications?

i wanna get outta the stupid hole!

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Pre Valentine's at B&J

It was packed! with new scoopies. fun though. the guys are crazy. awesome! a couple celebrated v'dae here today. so it was sappy love songs ALL the way. omg. i cant believe i lasted that long. they even played the titanic song. OMG! i almost died.

b&j babes! cheryl, huiyi and jolyn!

jolyn! muah!

my dear jolene came by from office too! omg! i miss working with U!!!

edmund one of the first few guy scoopies. wow.

of course jolyn's happy!

stealing ice cream on ur 1st day?! tut tut!

oldies

newbies! edmund, ben, haffie, dawn!

closing was fun. tiring but nice. josh came by, so did theowee. sam came by for a short dinner too. thanks. made me feel bad la. hiaz. silly boy. but i was happy! :)

the new batch is fun! and ben's a great guitarist! nice voice too! yay! entertainment! but it was fun serving the v'day couple and all.

too bad im still not a fan of v'dae. :P

ecrit ||1:46 AM 0 comments

tuesday morning lit lecture

i was sitting still in lecture
paying full attention
taking notes till my hand hurts
completely without distractions

that was till the moment
the thought of you entered my mind
completely broke my focus
i even lost track of time

i tried to focus
but nothing seems possible
i guess u were stuck in my mind
damn, ure capable

was it Darwin's mix of emotions and scientific language,
or Rosetti's claim of poetry working against the symbolic order
either way
i cant quite figure

i do remember your smile
ur lame ass nonsense too
i think this is making me a little crazy
perhaps there's just no you.

so much for lit lecture.

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

lazy sunday - aimless

went to watch half nelson with sam on sunday. it was a really lazy sunday. and it was hOT! the movie was good. pretty meaningful. good ending. picture house was freezing.

it certainly felt like a sunday. but somehow it just felt different. i cant quite figure out why. would like to though. bummed around and realize how sick of town i am. DFS was pretty fun though. i was pretty amused. kudos.

perhaps some of your depression has rubbed off on me
perhaps im just thinking too much
what the hell
im amazed how i can be irritated with myself.

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Monday, February 12, 2007

work on a saturday

and it wasnt bad at all. my first photoshoot for style mag. helped the fashion stylist out with the outdoor shoot. pretty darn cool. love how she mixes high fashion with sports gear. but it was hell of a tiring day. and the weather didnt help a bit. thought i was gonna like die of heat stroke or something. but the pictures turned out great! and tt's satisfaction.

met up with afro boy after dinner and ken and later josh and theo. bummed around and did what we did best, stone. somehow both the guys were in their own little world. josh was spacing out and sam was just in sam's little land. poor me and theo just had to entertain ourselves. it was quite hilarious.

hv was awfully quiet for a saturday night.. wonder where everyone went. we decided to go hang at some playground behind hv. and we all suffered from hemorrhage. some gross couple were like busy making out wide in the open. so much for moral ed in sch. it was way beyond gross. to the point that they should get a room. when we left we found out they were from china. explains everything. but it was fun making noise and half disturbing them. i bet they hated us! haa.

sam the druggie

my babe theo! pls dont leave!

so much for a fun saturday.

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Friday, February 09, 2007

That's When I Love You
By: Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

Absolutely love this song. hopefully someday i can sing it. i'd really love to. one of the sweetest songs ive heard. simple, straightforward and meaningful.

im sure it'll make a great Valentine's song. check it out here. love is all around! happy early valentines! to all those who are celebrating it, make it meaningful.

ecrit ||3:35 AM 0 comments

i'm a worry junkie

i told myself i'd given up hope
told myself no
told myself it's too much a crazy thought
yet something so small can trash hours of mind debate

i think im just helplessly reading too much into things
a bigger hole each night im digging
the narrations in my head seem to tell a beautiful story
the last thing i'd wanna hear is "I'm sorry"

i'd tell myself to give it a chance
but i can bear to screw things up
ive had enough in the past
that's why im feeling so stuck

stuck and left clueless
i don't quite know what to do
i wish i'd know how
to get through to you

ecrit ||3:22 AM 0 comments

i'd go the whole wide world just to find you

another random title which has abolutely no link to this post. the songs just kinda stuck in my head. cool song.

i finally got my sleep. 12 hrs straight. awesome. have not slept that long in quite some time. work today was pretty fun! met quite a few nice people who are friends of my friend. it's a small world after all. and i swear cathay has really weird people. weird customers demanding for weird things. like how this man came in and demanded a shop card for the address for the Hong Kong Ben& Jerry's. and this lady who asked me what is Ben&Jerry's. um, isnt it obvious it's an ice cream parlour?! haha.. it was hilarious.

the band tonight was pretty good. singer had a great voice. voice didnt quite match his face that's all. but it was fun. nice lovey dovey songs!

the past few days have been, well, pretty depressing i must say. alright, maybe the stress is just getting to my head. considering the fact that all my sch mates are quite competitive and getting a B in my sch is not considered good. it's not that im letting it get to me, but when ure there and u see all your friends stressing and working so hard it just creeps up to you and eats you away. sometimes i really wonder why am i not doing what i seriously seriously wanna do with my life. like my first passion, without any doubts or restriction. sadly the world's not all that charitable.

working hard just aint good enough sometimes. whatever happened to contentment?!

on a lighter note, and completely random, Lurve is in the air! NO i am NOT in love. i wish though. but ive been rushing to do the decor for cathay the past few days and it's up! all my LURVE! i hope the hearts dont fall off. how ironic that im doing so much for Valentine's Day when i myself am not even celebrating it?! i might even consider working for that matter. sadly. :(

but i hate the fact that its become so commercialized and marketed that it's completely lost it's meaning. seems to me it's more like a way for guys to show off how much they can splurge on a girl. not that that's bad. but paying a hell lot of extra cash for something ordinary is worthless. i sound sore dont i?! haha.. hilarious. trust me i am not. but i do pity the people who burn a hole in their wallets on that day and enslaving themselves to the greedy money eaters out there. it's just crazy. valentine's is suppose to be sweet and meaningful. simple is sweet. just as ignorance is bliss.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

dead in a living world

zouk flea and some nature

zouk flea was packed! could barely moved! so didnt stay too long. bahh.. bought some plastic necklace from my sch mate. we found a nice white vespa outside greatworld! or is it samuel's?!

the guys and the secret vespa
alvin and samuel

Reliving Childhood Days At Botanical Gardens

we crashed theo's picnic. actually it was kinda like a surprise farewell for theo. was fun. we went photo crazy after we found out some cool function on my cam! haha.. there were so many cute kids and puppies!