thanks, you got me all paranoid now it's bugging me. if i was too naiive as to trust people so easily. my judgement sucks. cuz i always tend to believe people are nice. like everyone. and i always get into shit. and now i really pray and hope i will not regret. i don't know why i want to trust you, or why i even did in the first place. but after what you said, now i am scared. and confused again. why?! please tell me it's all just a joke. i was shocked at how fast you can change the mood and made me stay quiet the remaining ride. scary isnt it? it's like taking a plunge right into the deep end. and staying lost in the depths of your own thoughts.
i live my life with no regrets please don't make me start to.
ecrit ||2:31 AM
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
blessing in disguise
shopping with the girls today was fun as usual. bought uncle edmund a polo tee from ben sherman. we were all so stone, wandering around like lost souls. and i found a nice top! :)
i was so dreading work. the moment i got off the cab i felt queasy. not that i hate the place. but it's just a weird feeling. like you don't feel welcome. i don't quite understand why. and then it got worse. thank god for the girls nicole and merissa who stayed till 7. made things way better.
today i learnt to give everyone a chance. and not belive what others say about them. people are nice, just misunderstood.
things kinda got pretty weird after they left. i guess i was very much quiet. i just didnt feel like my usual self. and i think donald got quite worried cuz he kept asking if i was alright. all i did was stand at a corner and do my job. serve, scoop, and clean. usual stuff, maybe just a tad bit lifeless. for once in my entire working life i had no one to talk to. especially when weetiong and donald went out. and the girls left. i tried to be nice and make jokes.. ok maybe my jokes arent funny. oh well. i wasnt in much of a mood to talk also. i was thinking. alot. about everything. work, school, people, friends, church, my plans.. i guess i must have come off as being very proud cuz i was so quiet. but what's wrong with being quiet.
there were times that i wished i had like faked sick. but that wont be very professional of me. work is work. i stood there, and wished so so freakin hard that i could teleport myself back to cathay. or anywhere out of the place at that very moment. it was nothing bad. i just felt very uneasy. i wasnt angry of irritated or anything. just uneasy and lonely. it has been a while since i left lonely. and it sucks.
i wanted to skip dinner, cuz i didnt wanted to eat alone. so i tried telling weetiong and donald i wasnt hungry. when i was like dying. my cramps didnt help much either. half way i kinda lost my appetite. donald bought me a packet so i had to eat it cuz i felt bad. so i sat there, alone. yes.. alone.. and stared at my food. it was damn freakin sad. i thought i was gonna cry. i think i said the longest grace ever today. kept praying that time will past fast or maybe things will get better. so i did it. i had a meal alone. like my first meal alone in like years. ive always had this policy that if i'd have to eat alone, i'd rather not eat. eating is a happy thing, i don't believe people should eat alone. i'll never ever let anyone eat alone from now on. no way. it's too painful.
thankfully donald came over to talk to me. and i couldnt take it anymore so i told him how i felt and everything. he's a good manager. it's not him, it's just the way the place is being portrayed. u step in there and everything's so gorgeous. but somehow i cant feel welcomed there. maybe it's just me. i dunno how to put it to words. it's just that being there i feel like im in the wrong place. it just feels uneasy. maybe i just belong to cathay. so yes...good news is....
IM TRANSFERING BACK TO CATHAY!!! YAY!!
dempsey's kinda like of a different time dimension. somehow time just crawls by so painfully. by 930 it felt like 12. and it was too painful waiting for the hours to go by.
ive learnt to appreciate some people. and know to everyone is nice, just misunderstood. i learnt what it is to feel alone and i wont let anyone eat alone i learnt patience i learnt tolerance and i learnt how to forget your hunger
ecrit ||12:10 AM
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Monday, May 28, 2007
birthday parties
the first in quite a long while that i woke up at 8. it was painful. had to drag myself out of bed. even a long shower didnt help to open my eyes. staying awake during service was too hard of a struggle.mornings are just bad time.
the kid's party at cathay was some what of the usual terror. what more this was a boy's party. i actually thought the store was gonna be torn apart at times. little terrors. we met this 2 sisters, joycelyn and joanne who were such angels! turns out she's an scgs girl! :) the dear sweerheart saw some pictures in my cam and found "the man" cute. it was damn hilarious. and she kept asking me what time "the man" was gonna come to the party! i never knew attraction, crushes and what-nots started at such a young age.
joycelyn
with her sister joanne
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Monaco Monochrome Happy 21st Shu!
mae and i hiked all the way to the far east for Monaco Monochrome. it was one long ride. thank god for mae and her silly nonsense! made the night so much more fun!
pretty cupcakes, good food, black jack and many more silly hand slapping games to pass the night.
self entertained
with the birthday girl
i love love this one..
babes that came a long way it's been 7 years!
kenny's babes?! nahhhh.. silly boy seemed so happy for that moment!
supper with 3/4 of the fantastic 4. it was a nice time talking nonsense and sharing secrets over prata and ice tea. i never knew we could talk to much.
sometimes it feels like the night could go on forever..
ecrit ||3:53 AM
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Saturday, May 26, 2007
perhaps, a little too much?
first day of work at dempsey's was pretty strange for some matter. i was very much quieter. didn't quite feel like myself. i thought it'd be ok at first, but hmm.. it's just weird. and i was pretty freaked out by the no. of deja vu scenes i got.
ive learned to appreciate simplicity. and also fall back into the comfort of familiarity. if there's anything that i hate, it'd have to be false pretenses.i really really dislike and dont understand why people have to be fake. i value truth and honesty quite a fair bit. probably because ive seen friends and people become a completely different person and coming across as being so plastic. and the scary thing is they do it so well that sometimes you just cant help but wonder are they even genuine? the fine line between being fake and putting up a front is often blurred. everyone puts up different fronts everyday, but fronts can be seen through. being fake is like completely being this other fictional character and making people think that you're that character when actually you're totally someone else. why cant everyone just come clean and make things simple?
life itself is complicated enough, why complicate things even further? that's definitely one question i'd like to ask God. there's only so much time you get on earth, why make things so difficult? everyone makes mistakes, no point judging.
i thought about some old friends ive had. yea. had. it's sad to see that they've changed so out of the blue into someone completely different. is that what people call growing up? i sure hope it isnt so.
simplicity, honesty & truthfullness is it that difficult?
ecrit ||4:06 AM
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back to school night at Cathay! jon and i rushed down to cathay after work at dempsey's for our back to school night, all dressed in our uniforms! it was quite funny seeing the customer's weird expression. and such a big irony cuz school hols kinda starts today!
working at dempsey's today has made me appreciate Cathay so so so very much. going there after work at dempsey's was just like stepping back into realism. huge huge difference.
like i told fungyee and dawn from office when they asked me, "i love the place, but whether i love working there would depend on who i work with." i know it doesnt really sound very nice, but i'd rather be honest. i cant say i'll love when i've only been there for a couple of hours. and it's like if you work with nice, real people, of course u'll love working, the place wouldnt matter.
on our way down to Cathay!! finally..
it's BACK TO SCHOOL NIGHT!
the fantastic 4: jon haffie myself & dawn of course it's not exclusive! cuz fantastic 4 always adds new members! sharon babe! ure Ms Marvel yea?! pls remember your powers!! haha..and then there's spidey too! and many many more to come!
it was so difficult trying to act guai! choking!!
spidey! and his head popping magic trick! hilarious! im so gonna miss Uncle Edmund! truly the best and most honest manager i've seen
Jon: too cool for school
it's all about the smiles :| :) :) :) zoom in and look at the drawing on the paper
it's all coming back again waiting for an sms and smiling to my phone late nights and day dreams
instant highs instant lows u've got me all confused dear, i'd really love to know
it's so impossible but stubborn faith perseveres
i tried figuring you out but i just dig myself another hole dont you just hate it when the cloud of awkwardness falls the grey blurry fog that clouds your brain
it seems like it's starting to get better or is it just me trying too hard to be positive?
ecrit ||3:12 AM
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photos upload 2 first look at dempsey
if you've not already known, im being transfered over to BnJ at Dempsey's! it's called The Ranch Home. really cool place. love the ambiance and it's huge ass!
Got a lift from jon up there cuz it's way too impossible to get there on your own. it's madness. it has always been like some sorta secret civilization in the midst of the forest. and jon decided to pick up other jon as well. boys will be boys. the car ride was well.. um.. fun with a little weird moments.
it was my vintage shades day! and jon decided to play along too so he went home to get his avaitors. and we found some "viper man" shades for other jon.
doing the signature pout
thank god my babe jolene was there!
boys will be boys. clean up was.. very dirty. but the place is just enchanting!
jon siow and i *To SC girls: Doesnt he remind you of the pe Mr Ang from SC?!! eeew! hahaha.. our "xian ji bua" face
my dear jo!
the car ride back was omg. mad. 5 girls + jons=MADNESS MAYHEM! i think there was a severe lack in oxygen and everyone just became crazy and couldnt stop laughing! the girls kept shouting out random locations they wanna drop at! damn funny.
the trip up was well.. nice and fun, but hmm.. bit awkward. i think it's just me. and i hope it does not repeat when i start work there. i so hate awkward pauses. and the "don't think i don't know" look. damn.
ecrit ||2:33 AM
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the day i spend running around quite a bit helping jon find a printer and do his invite thing. visited so many places in an afternoon. wonders of a car.
jon trying to do some pout thing again
the pretty babe
my CAKE! haha.. we bumped into donald(my CAKE!) at raffles
err...viking jon? hahahaha..
we found a party costume shop at some secluded building which i dunno what it's called. it was quite a scary party shop. there was like so many costumes, masks and all. and it was pretty old and the building is like quiet and ancient! omg. i think i'll like freak out if i have to stay in the shop.
being nice pays off. and knowing more people is awesome! thanks! zouk's getting better each time. sadly, maybe not tonight. i don't know. first time mambo ended so early! i was quite shock. and the usual squeeze at phuture. i think i saw a little too much today. it's disgusting. i believe in vino veritas, so yeah. how am i gonna look at you the same way again? beats me. u siad ignorance is bliss. i should think so. sadly not tonight. i was um.. haha.. hemorrhaging! oh well.. not that it matters. gross.. eeeew!
someone still owes me a clubbing night. please dont puke ur guts out ok? where were u while we were getting high? its scary how easily you can give me an instant high.
i had alot of fun with the girls mae and scoopy sharon. crazy babes! and mae, mambo is not weird. maybe the people at mambo are. especially this time round. and sadly no cuties AT ALL! omg! but we had fun! :) tons of weird asses. it's like weirdo's night out or something! yikes!
i guess im seeing and knowing way too much than i should. it's not good. i don't wanna know! why is it that when you don't wanna know then you get everything thrown right in your face? ironic. pray to god and hope the next week would be good. im still trying to embrace change. it aint easy. being forced to be normal, when u know things were not. maybe it's just me overreacting. to top it all off, tonight didnt help either.
ecrit ||4:24 AM
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
spurts of random thoughts
a call and an sms
i got an sms, and i almost cried and then i received a call, and almost freaked out. it's crazy. i cant believe myself sometimes.
it's funny how one small little thing can just make your day, and completely cheer you up. and also how fast a simple call can like crash everything and just dampen your spirit. why does it seem like my happiness is revolved around circumstances. oh well. girls are emotional. everyone's a little emo kid inside. but life goes on.
i dont wanna leave cathay. well part of me does want to. cuz seeing the same place like almost everyday kinda makes you sick. but then again, i cant bear to leave the girls behind. the past few weeks has been so much fun. it's become our second home. i'll miss all of u so so much. BUT! i'll definitely be back. change is good. i guess...
i wanna continue with all the nonsense we've been doing the late night suppers, bumming around doing silly things and laughing at everything
i dont think i'll know how to have fun over at dempseys :( help!!!!
can i pack u guys into a big brown bag and bring you over with me?
::::::: it's all coming back now
on a totally different note, i dont understand how things can get so weird, then suddenly it's back to normal again. i still remember feeling like crap that its got me so freakin confused, and now it's all looking great! its made me happy, made me smile silly all over again. perhaps, hopefully, this time will be for the better..
i can only wish for things to be simple
im a simple girl who is easily pleased..
::::::: Polaroids are fun fun FUN! took so many today! plus the lomo shots! i hope they turn out good.
i wanna go out and shoot some photos soon! join me! i need a scanner to scan all my photos!! helP!!
prints from the photo shoot for looque models are out!
our model Galya's from Russia. i love the aloof, lost in your own look, part troubled, yet free look. sam's a great photographer cum make up and hair stylist!! all photos done with film! great lighting despite the rain! These photos are way better than the ones on her com card! Galya's a dear!
it's almost as if everything was back to normal who am i kidding again?!
spent the day running around, so many places in just one afternoon.. but was all fun. i bought my red vintage shades! :D now im broke. but happy. but broke. :| i was pretty much in a daze. probably due to the lack of sleep.ate too much of a lunch and felt too full. but it was a nice yummy lunch! somehow i cant sleep. i dunno why. its bad. I WANT MY SLEEP raaah..
of silly nonsense and weird observations. sometimes im amused by what goes on inside my mind if only you'd know half the things i think of i think you'll die laughing
i was like 2hrs late for work. not like it really matters, cuz there's enough people at the shop anyway. i know every day i say that i dont feel like working. probably cuz the girls are the only ones that's keeping me going, and making work worth going for. thanks! i think i visited alot of places that ive never been to today. like weird random places that makes me feel as if we've driven through a time zone or into an alternate reality. cool.
a pretty blue monday, but a cheery shade of blue!
ecrit ||1:45 AM
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i went for service on sat. it was weird. why in the world do i have to see you?! you, the one and only person i wish to just disappear off the face of this earth. the one and only being or mass of meat tt is taking up precious oxygen in the air. calling you human is such a great big insult to the human race. thinking of it just makes me wanna puke. whatever. i was like this close to walking out. thank god i realize you're not worth it for me to miss service.
it's been a while since ive gone for service. not that i dont wanna go. just that there's always something happening on sat! but it was good. God showed me alot of things ive like pushed aside. and ive actually alot of thinking to do. which i do not like to. but oh well. i have to. i need to go for a beach vacation soon. or maybe a nice long quiet car ride would do me some good. i need to sort out alot of things. really alot.
i hate the fact everything is always such a blur and i just cant figure out why im confused all the time. help!
ecrit ||1:31 AM
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Monday, May 21, 2007
post zouk flea
another roll of lomo, better shots, some are still over exposed. damn. but the good ones are beautiful. maybe because i love highly saturated colours. and daddy thinks it's crap and nonsese cuz the colour isnt right. he's like the typical-traditional-photographerish type. and i just like shooting nonsense.
zouk flea was fun. just tt it was way to crowded to shop. hiaz. it always is. bumped into donald(my cake!!) uncle weetiong and chandran. haha.. silly boy! photos are in my lomo! i need a scanner!!! help!! shopping with dawn was good. tt girls's damn funny. love u babe! im so happy we're all gonna go bangkok! rocks! i saw a pair of vintage shades at far east i want. damn. now im regretting not getting it. rah. cuz i bought a bag. im spending too much!! gonna have to leave my cards at home. bah.
we dropped by cathay to sharon's rescue cuz the poor girl was dying from some sorta scratch and clawing! hahaha.. cheer up babe! and dont lose yourself ah!! we love u! all of us have been hanging around cathay alot. it's turning into our home i tell you. but FUN!
therapy no. 1 with jasmine was damn fun! bought so much stuff! and my Kate Moss for Top Shop shorts! i still wanna get the yellow one! bahh.. and i realize we didnt take any photos! raH!
oh well.. must go again k jas babe! Retail Therapy No. 2
Patients: Dawn, Haffie & Dea
it was damn hilarious! omg, ive not had such a crazy shopping experience in a while! last was theo i think! haha.. THEOWOO COME BACK!!! ok, anyway.. vivo was quite fun!and we only covered a small section la! had lunch at Marche which was really really pretty! all my photos are in the lomo so cant wait to develop it!!
dawn and haffie went crazy at topshop la. haffie wants to try everything! and gets angry with things cuz its too high uP! haha. and dawn whines about everything! the best is still how she whines about her not whining! hahaha.. omg! u girls are really the reason why im still working at cathay!! love love! we HAVE to go on a proper shopping trip sooN!!
i bought a damn happy colourful skirt and unides! yay!
the yummylicious marche food! calamari, crepe, pasta & hot cross buns! YUM!
::: Aloha! Beach Night at Ben & Jerry's Cathay!
It was Hawaiian Beach Night tonight! so we all came in our beach gear! then it got cold! haha.. and it was pretty quiet so we played around quite a bit!
my babes! with pretty brollies in our drinks!
cheers to the fantastic 4!
jon's emo shot so poserish!
omg! i didnt know there was so many umbrellas in my hair! huiyi was happily playing and poking it in while i was washing the collars.. haha.. im sure everyone would think we are mad!
jon haffie and i trying the pout omG!
doing the signature feline pout! meeeeeooowwww!!! hahahahaha.. omg! luscious!
presenting Fantastic 4 and the 1-10 pose
omg! i wonder why i even did it! so embarrassing! it was just crazy la! i dont even know how we came about doing it. pobably making fun of stupid people again! i never knew the poses till today la.. haha..
it was quite a fun friday :)
i lost my lomo in the caB! ok.. it's not even mine. my friend loaned it to me! i love the cam la! and thank god they just called to say the cab driver found it! THANK YOU GOD! ok.. promise i'll keep my word, be good and go to church!! i wanna go take more photos!!
WHY is it that difficult not to be misunderstood and give the wrong idea? it's damn freakin frustrating i dont freakin feel a thing it's great! get it straight!
anyway.. the first set of lomo shots are our! and im loving the colours! pretty pretty! highly saturated. awesome! now to find a scanner and scan it it. damn.
the very very scary ride in jon's car. i swear i thought i was not gonna make it to the next day. the prata place was like in malaysia or something. and we had an adventure finding the toilet across the street and another trying to send sharon home. haha.. tt blur girl didn't know how to get home so we got lost trying to look for sand piles! damn funny..
Thanks to Mr Rain and the whole shit crap at Zouk the night before, Wonderland kinda got killed and stolen by the evil witch of the forest. So the picnic ended up at Cathay. No where near my choice of party locations but it was so freakin last min, so i did not have much of a choice.
Barely slept, swollen eyes and feeling crappier than i can ever feel isnt really the best time to have a party. So much for a blast. It was nice having everyone together i guess. Thanks so so so much to those that helped. Sharon, Shin, Jasmine, i'd not have made it without you girls.. and Jon. Thanks for taking time off and lending help. and of course the people who came. sorry it was a tab bit of a let down. promise you guys the next one will be more of a blast. i should like get some club.
cathay babes! yes, jon included
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The Wonderful Box from my babes!
21 special things. I absolutely love it! Thanks Sharon, Shin & Mae!
WOOOOOO!! HOLGA! Ken!! u rock la dude!!! I LOVE U! ahaha.. not THAT way.. hehehe.. i love the Holga much much more! hahaha.. so so happy to have this! been wanting one for quite a while.. Thanks everyone who chipped in! There's too manY! haha. love love it! let's go take photos SOON!
shu, mae, i, sharon & olivia Happy Sweet 21st Mae! it's been waaayyy too long! love u to bits!
Mae's birthday dinner at Esmirada's. Food was goooood! and it was really funny trying to keep our etiquette while struggling with the huge stick of kebab. any meet up with an scgs babe is always worth the time! there's just too much to catch up!
::: Very Pampered at Zouk also the night i wish never to remember
berry chiva smoothies, lots of photos and a tad too much to drink what started of as fun really kinda ended in one huge disaster
cathay babes, dawn, huiyi and jas!
our own mini party outside the toilet
a screwed up night with good photos. the irony of life probably the one and only party night i'll regret. for a long time. i've to be honest, i still hate it. the only thing good was you girls. i swear i'll never ever let this happen to me again.
if you can turn back time and do things differently if you can take the back seat and watch things happen if you'd listen to your damn gut feel and not give into the spur of the moment if only moving on is as easy as saying it if only pain would be a better distraction perhaps it would just numb everything. perhaps everything would go away in the morning
who am i trying to kid?!
its so ironic how honesty is brutal. so face facts and be clear with yourself. sometimes its even difficult trying to. playing with fire burns you. pushing you limits leaves you feeling like crap. especially when you've got a party the next day. makes everything even more screwed up. maybe a good time away will help? it's just times like these that you wish you can disappear into a far away land. perhaps never returning. one way ticket to never never land. it's times like these when you wanna scream "screw the world", and walk out.
the crying in my sleep came back came back haunting after a year of freedom go away i want it to all go away i wanna feel ok when i say im ok
tainted innocence one bitten, twice shy a sinful addiction sucking your blood dry
ecrit ||12:50 AM
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Saturday, May 12, 2007
they say your whole life flashes before you just before you leave this earth. sometimes i wonder how does it feel..
one of the sweetest clips ive seen. why is it all lovely dovey these days?! weird...
ecrit ||3:03 AM
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i came across this ice cream test! quite funny! try it!!
it seems like a holiday full of parties to me yea it's all fun but i cant carry on with these
waking up to lunch, watching countless mtv half asleep then heading out ive not seen the sunrise or the morning in a while
i miss them i miss the beach squishing your toes into the sand i miss the stars trying to count the glitters of the sky
i miss crying my heart out laughing till it hurts (well maybe not this) and really pouring my heart out to someone letting all the nonsense come out till i can be free from everything
well if its in vino veritas maybe i wouldnt mind getting drunk but a nice long walk and a good chat will do as well
there's so many things i'd like to do i wanna go to the quiet places in singapore and take photos of real life i wanna serve in kids ministry again see the smiles on their faces and their innocent laughter
i wanna stop coming home to an empty house i wanna change things sometimes i dunno what i want but maybe i just dunno how to put it out..
ecrit ||2:06 PM
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Happy Birthday Babe! Hope you had fun! jas and i couldnt figure out why the sea food platter wont finish! and there was much juicy information revealed over dinner!! haha.. rite jas?!! :P know everything but act blur! i love u babe! haha
jas, sat daryl & i with the birthday girl
sat & jas
daryl
braces! havent seen u in a while! u disappeared la! :P
and more pictures from our "dress-up" haha.. trying on my shades at night was damn funny! and i couldnt decide what to wear to mambo! so kept changing!
haha.. it's freaky when u start to find so many similarities in someone else! but it's cool! we were bumming around getting ready to go to zouk so we decided to play dress up! haha.. the usual nonsense that girls do! tons of fun!
mambo was damn fun! i still love my green tea baileys at members! nice to have a table and sit down for a drink. thanks jon. sadly mambo songs was not that good. but we still has fun! and phuture was packed like hell, but music was damn good. rahh! why why why?!!
this saturday's event! yay! hope it'll be fun!
ecrit ||1:49 PM
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Monday, May 07, 2007
there are times that i wanna say what i feel, but the words just refuse to come out. times that i wanna look a little longer, get lost in your eyes but i just have to turn away. times that i wanna sit and enjoy the silence yet fear makes laughter get in the way. times that i wanna do something crazy, something completely out of the blue, but sanity grabs a hold of my feet and plants them firmly on the ground.
it's been quite a while since i last took the bus home alone at night. and i almost forgot how much thinking i do on the bus, till tonight. i don't know if it's a good or bad thing though. i love the feeling of fading into the background, taking the back seat, watching people as if you don't exist. perhaps it's just getting lost into your own world. either way, the funny feeling always comes. it's part nostalgia, part excitement, yet some what disappointing and also confusing. i cant describe it. i actually thought about what the hell am i doing with my life right now?! it's the first hols that i have nothing to do. no concrete plans. i dont do very well with idleness.
ive been waiting for the response from style for a week. and it's annoying me cuz it's taking too long. and ive given up other stuff for it. then again, do i really wanna do the whole magazine thing? its fun, but fun gets boring. at least fun bores me sometimes. i don't know why. so i was just thinking of what i wanna do. there's like a million things actually. i always want to do everything, but then im never settled with one. is that my problem? like i can never be settled down?
a while back someone asked me, "dea, when are you ever gonna settle down?" i was how freakin shock. thanks la jon. ok.. jon lin. i realize i know like a million jons. anyway.. the thought of it scares me. really. im so used to being busy and rushed so much that slowing down seems weird and unnatural. is this even normal? i guess i want to like slow down, but then again i don't feel like im going anywhere now la. and it bugs me. seriously.
just the past few days ive seen flashes of like couples. everywhere! everyone seems to be happily attached and settled. just last week it's been my 1 year of freedom. and im sure lovin it. no strings attached. but it gets weird at times. especially so when u realize that ure the only one who's like not with someone. i dunno! somehow this thing just pops up and forces me to distant myself from a person. perhaps its fear, of whatever i still don't know, perhaps it's just this force that stops me from really opening up and being transparent. i actually thought of how many people that get to see the me for me. not that im fake, but there's way more. i just dont understand why it just stops there.
if life is like a canvas, waiting to be painted, then i'd wish mine could be erased, bleached and repainted all over. sometimes i get so sick and tired of the things im doing. not to say that i dont like it. i love it. but i dont know why i get bored of things so fast?! i have this thing with attention deficit. seriously. and it seems to be getting outta hand. and confusion's staring to become my friend as well. no what am i gonna do?!!
ecrit ||9:35 PM
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Sunday, May 06, 2007
just another saturday night
jon & jo
we made dinner again! i made bacon potato gratin and jon made his breaded chicken! definitely way better food than the ones from the basement! yum yum!
jon's breaded chicken fillet
on-guard!
jo's elephie
jason's band and 80% alcohol rocked the night! poor edmund and jon fell victim! haha.. but they were happily dancing on stage la. damn funny.
we went geylang for supper again. great food! i love frog porridge! had so so much to eat! we were so busy eating we didnt take photos! and we went on a about angsty weird pple at cathay. earlier there was a guy who came in wearing those gas mask. the black ones that terrorists wear when they wanna gas a building. nut head!
jon's "slap u ah! " impression be nice to your feline dude! hahahha
supper was fun, and full of nonsense. parallel parking, all about cats, and getting lost in eunos trying to send edmund home and driving against traffic! omg!
zouk last night was pretty happening. drank hell alot la. long island, whiskey on the rocks, whiskey green tea, green tea baileys, and apple shooters. thanks to jon la! and mel and han! omg. and i totally forgot im on meds. almost died when i got home. but it's been long since i partied tt hard. was damn funny. ok. maybe everything seems funny to me when im high. then again, i always find weird random things funny. ah whatever.. it was fun! hopefully phuture tmr too! yay!
jolene came down for scoopies auditions. the new applicants looked.. um.. eeh.. no comments. standards are plunging!!! we need HAPPY CRAZY pple. not fierce sad moody pple! haha..
B1 & B2!!
JO: this is what u get when u dun have ice cream! :P
oh! dawn and i made cupcakes!!! it was only the 2 of us doing closing la! we were like dead after 11! but we had our own fun! laughing at nonsense things again!
we hit 3k in sales at cathay!! was so super packed. but it was fun! haffie and dawn were damn funny! love u babes!we actually hung around till 12 to talk nonsense and laugh at everything! haha.. thursday spidermaN!!! :)
im sad tt ive no more holiday! :( so much for bangkok! im still confused, but i wanna go! how how how?! im in need of a good night of partying! really. then i have to start making my party happen. which is gonna cost me a bomb. im gonna be broke! help! and i still need to go for therapy sprees and fleas! must work more!
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joycelyn
with her sister joanne
self entertained
with the birthday girl
i love love this one..
babes that came a long way
kenny's babes?! nahhhh..
on our way down to Cathay!! finally..
the fantastic 4: jon haffie myself & dawn
it was so difficult trying to act guai! choking!!
spidey! and his head popping magic trick! hilarious!
Jon: too cool for school
it's all about the smiles
cool rj kia vs geek vj boy
it was my vintage shades day! and jon decided to play along too so he went home to get his avaitors. and we found some "viper man" shades for other jon.
doing the signature pout
thank god my babe jolene was there!
boys will be boys. clean up was.. very dirty. but the place is just enchanting!
jon siow and i
our "xian ji bua" face
my dear jo!
jon trying to do some pout thing again
the pretty babe
my CAKE! haha.. we bumped into donald(my CAKE!) at raffles
err...viking jon?
ms haffie xian ji bua! haha
kat!
my glass babe! oooh! :P
pearlyn!
sharon the crazy one with bubbles.. haha
the yummylicious marche food!
my babes! with pretty brollies in our drinks!
cheers to the fantastic 4!
jon's emo shot
omg! i didnt know there was so many umbrellas in my hair!
jon haffie and i trying the pout
doing the signature feline pout! meeeeeooowwww!!!
presenting Fantastic 4 and the 1-10 pose
rory and the girls, ele and sharon
everyone was dead tired. but it was fun.
cathay babes! yes, jon included
21 special things. I absolutely love it!
Ken!! u rock la dude!!! I LOVE U! ahaha.. not THAT way.. hehehe.. i love the Holga much much more! hahaha.. so so happy to have this! been wanting one for quite a while.. Thanks everyone who chipped in! There's too manY! haha. love love it!
shu, mae, i, sharon & olivia
berry chiva smoothies, lots of photos and a tad too much to drink
cathay babes, dawn, huiyi and jas!
our own mini party outside the toilet
jas, sat daryl & i with the birthday girl
sat & jas
daryl
braces!
jon & jo
jon's breaded chicken fillet
on-guard!
jo's elephie
jon's "slap u ah! " impression
B1 & B2!!
JO: this is what u get when u dun have ice cream! :P
