:::another chapter

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

some random pics i transfered from my phone!!
look what i found!

leigh, charmain and i at sentosa some time back

me without any eyeliner! hah!

darling girlfriend sebas's 1st time at mambo!

with kenneth and guys after mambo!
no.. it's not what it seems like pls.
purely for photo taking purposes only
i like the specs!!

ken the cam whore. at zouk i guess.

oh my.. the pictures really dated to way way back.

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i just got these photos so they're tad bit late.

Late friday night chill out at Starbucks

we headed down to starbucks at ps to meet up with kenneth and few of his friends to chill for a while after. sam got dragged along. and he found his new smoke buddy. :P

we were bored bumming around and i decided tp try kenneth's specs. cuz im gonna get one soon. and the result was disastrous. apparently some nutcase by the name of justin thinks i look like a secretary! which is like sooooo not true. nuts! it's gonna be my school look. not secretary!

me and guai boy sam
ya rite he's guai!

specky guai kias!

so NOT secretary!
DISCLAIMER: If u see this on another blog saying it's something else please kindly disregard it!
thanks man justin! RAHHH!

kenneth and the AFRO!! Groovy Baby!

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Sunday, January 28, 2007

Saturday Night Fever!!
Alvin's and Angeline's Groovin 21st!

Happy Birthday Dude & Dudette!! The Retro Party was Awesome! the photos speak for themselves!

Alvin the birthday boy and i

clockwise:
theowee, alvin!, afros joyce and sam, me and the afro babe joyce, charlie's angels, birthday babe angeline and sam

us and the birthday boy
and the star cake sam and i painstakingly decorated with the colourful dots

Clockwise:
grace&alvin, afro boy & i(love love this pic), xiaomei & joyce, afro boy's sleepy, afro dude brandon, disco babY!

brandon, angie, sam, josh and i

more crazy madness!

the Mac Nuggets!

black & white baby.. totally rocks
everyone went chop-crazy..

samuel and his solo. cool stuff. this dude's pretty goooooood!!
perform soon yea?! :)

more random pics with afro boy killing time

the after party shot

so after alvin's party, we crashed some other girl's 21st. and she turned out to be my pri sch mate! what a small world!! it was in far away kand at aloha loyang!!

we were all entertaining ourselfs and here's alvin the cam whore!
I <3>

there was a mahjong table!! but sadly none of them could play. so we just made a mess.
sam got some cards and his smart idea of playing black jack, loser gets a chop. thanks to him ive got like i<3alvin all over my arm and on my back even! U CHOPPED MY BACK!!!!!! RAH!
and u got a one-of-a-kind SLEEVE CHOP courtesy of moi, Artist Dea! how cool is that?! u should thank me! :P

um.. i don't really know how we ended up squatting by the road watching some videos on the laptop. but it was a really fun and crazy night!

Happy 21st Mr Mac Nugget Alvin!
Hope u like your prezzie!

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random lines

slience
ironically says alot.

it's been pretty quiet here the past week. probably cuz im too busy running around. to certain extent im pretty pleased im keeping up to my "work hard, play hard" motto this year. i hope i dont die. kinda fell sick on monday. flu sucks. throat has been hurting since. i hope it goes away soon.

tons of thoughts as uaual. random, nonsense, full of sense and out of the blue. my brother told me if we'd write a book about our life we're gonna make big bucks. sounds true.

it seems that valentine's becoming a bigger thing with each year. signs started in dec last year! pretty cards sold at borders. saw one i particularly loved! it was sweet in a funny way. my kinda style. too bad it aint for me. it's just so weird how much people play up the hype of valentine's and make it such a huge ass thing. im no party pooper but isnt it really a day just to get you to burn a hole in your pockets?! dont get me wrong i love to celebrate it. with friends, someone, or more friends. either way it's a cool holiday. but i just dont get why everyone makes such a big fuss bout it. perhaps i should invent some holiday and strike it rich too. now that'll be awesome. love is in the air. i feel it, but it aint necessary gonna come to me. wish it would though.

things aside, last night's dream was.. well.. it made me smile. and freaky enough, my friend dreamt of me and the same other person. how weird is that?!! oh well..

tell me why do i keep falling for all the wrong guys?! someone told me i should settle down. i thought it was crazy. i do wanna fall in love again. but it seems crazy. and that same someone said to me, "dea, ure not trying hard enough. or maybe ure not trying at all."
im still in shock though. how do u even try?! am i the only one who's so clueless?!
just sweep me off my feet wont you?

i had so much going on in my mind just now. and now ive lost everythinG! rah!

on a totally random note, i realize i really cant get angry anymore. i get pissed and irritated. but i just cant be bothered to get angry. i dont know why. or maybe ive not reached boiling point yet. im starting to get bored again. getting bored with the way things are now. not that i dont like it. i do. but i know it can get better. oh well..

im tired of being the way i am now
tired of floating around
tired of so called going with the flow

now who says change is bad?!

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Saturday Night!

last minute decision to work at b&j after the guys planned to ditch me for soccer. thanks man. but b&j was great that night! all my darling babes! claire, janet and shin!!
plus kel and friends were performing so it'll be fun! good music always sets the right mood. it's been pretty long since cathay was That packed. so it was GREAT!

the guys: justin, ken, max and sat

lots of kisses!! haha.. shin my babe!

janet our lao da!! love u babe!

RAHHHH!!

we all went for dao huay after we closed at 1.. and then headed down to zouk. which was pretty fun! music at Phuture was goood that night! and my first sucessful attempt in walking home after zouk! awesome!

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

no consistent beat

woke up to a dizzy start
curled up in bed,
comfort zone, feeling safe
the music setting the mood

the monotonous humming
taking you back
perhaps to a dream
or somewhat a fragment of reality

it's the little suprises,
the little gestures,
the little coincidences,
making eyes twinkle, making me smile

cliche as it sounds
there seems to be so much in common
but there's a sense of comfort
im not afraid to be me

butterflies flutter
makes the beat goes faster
it all seems surreal
prehaps i was recalling last nights dream?

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mr sun was exceptionally HOT!

looks are so decieving.

met up with sam to shop. it was hilarious laughing at random things and complaining how hot it is! ur nonsense really made my day.we walked up and down town like so many times. i cant believe we walked that much too. esp in the hot sun.

town's getting rather boring. let's go an siang street and haji lane soon!

samuel wong the not so guai kia
turns out i know quite a few samuels... this is the guai one then

break st spinelli's
it was too hot for walking
and u were not suppose to agree with me!

look!!

mr guai kia

friday night babes!

huiyi, huishan and theowee!

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it should have been more fun

closing with theo
it got so boring we started taking photos of everything! josh and theo's other friend came by. added bit of fun.

cheryl and my shades before she knocked off

the many faces..

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

something absolutely ridiculous i heard yesterday...

someone told me, "I think I'll do psychology in uni... so i can go psycho girls."
hilarious. i think u know who u are. hahaha..
thanks. u made me laugh.

info visualization class is horribly painful now. hence the blogging. don't understand the mumblings that's going on. im sure many others don't as well.

i woke up to quite a bad start today. only good thing is that i got my homework done. and then daddy couldnt fetch me to school so i was late. and i had to take a cab which was $22! was madness, but the uncle only took $16 cuz he said he went a longer way. that's crazy thing no. 2! and my record for the most discount gotten from cab drivers! $6 off! cool. i wish all cab uncles are that nice!

so i got to sch, and was like almost an hour late for class. and the printer in the lab had to die on me. so i couldnt print my hw. and guess what?! i got lost! i had absolutely no idea where class was at. thought it'd be at the LT, and my friends aren't replying cuz class has already started for 45mins. thank god i managed to get a reply and walk back! so now im in class multi-tasking. and trying not to wander off to lala land.

ironic thing is she asked for all of our attention span during the intro thing. mine is like what 20 seconds max?! oh well.. can't wait to do my hair later! gosh that sounds bimbotic! rahh

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

if only

she sits and stares into vast emptiness
a room filled with faces
familiar smiles familiar voices
she's trapped in many places

places she's frequented
visit after visit
yet empitiness awaits
still, hollow, stagnant, captured.

if only cloudless skies awaits
and stars come out to play
if only dreams could come to life
if only i could say,

dance like there's no tomorrow
sing like no one cares
feel my heart skip a beat
if only you'd be there...

* i am NOT in love whatsoever so please don't assume!!

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tim's 21st!

shopping on sunday failed terribly. cuz no one was on time. and the rain just made everything bleak. i was trying not to fall asleep half the time and the other half trying not to drif away into my own little world. i love the long ride to the place. some secluded chalet in changi. it was a long straight road. the kind that seems to lead to no where, the kind that lets you drive on forever. seems like a great place for a late night drive and a good chat. it was a mix of serenity and mystery as dusk engulfs the setting sun. sadly we spent most of the time figuring out the way. the mambo music and photo taking kept me awake though..

silly poses with kenneth and jon! :)
i like ken's trucker cap!

more random shots at the party

tim the birthday boy in red!
happy 21st dude!

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

unlikely saturday

the girls were suppose to meet up for some girly pampering but somehow everyone was late so decided to hang around town. we wanted to sit outside orchard mrt for a bit but we got scared when this old ahpek kept starring at us. but people watching and laughing at random things was crazy. especially with mae and shu! we managed to go watch mae's bf break at some mtv street break dancing thing. was pretty cool.

mae and shuhui

met up with josh later in the evening for dinner and then with alvin. i had yamamuang! yummy! u cant never get sick of thai food. ok.. maybe that's just me. josh claim's it's raw mango=monkey food. tut tut! rahh.. i like it!

we got sick of town. there were no movies to watch and it was swarming with pple. before we knew it we were kinda on our way to little india. we were not THAT bored. went to check out this chill out place for alvin's 21st. but it was so random and spontaneous to go there. doing things on impulse rocks!

the crazy mac nugget alvin!

joshua: self proclaimed mambo king

WARNING

smoking ruins life
this is what happens if you start
you'll be put behind bars!
:P

Little India

huge ass plants, fruits and veg!
feels like a night in a farm!
now we know why we hardly see indians in the markets in the day. they shop at night!!

Barbaablackchic. yep. that IS the name of the mini club thing. sounds kinda cheesy and tacky, but the ambience upstairs was nice! cool place to chill out that spins indie music!!
samuel, alvin, yao, me and josh!

i love my shot under the stairs!
and check out the huge display case containing bottles of all sorts of alcohol! it has almost everything! miniatures and all.

we has prata somewhere near mustafa. mum called and freaked when she found out i was in little india at like 1plus. she thought i was mad.
it wasnt the typical saturday night, but that's why it's fun. random things, unlikely places and great company.

we didnt feel like going back after the rest left so we decided to take a walk. it was after the rain and the weather was cool and breezy. josh and i sorta got lost trying to walk to town. but we found our way there! was hell alot of walking. i think we passed some back alleys and places i never knew existed! like some squatters corner. people were sleeping on the sides of walkways with those make-shift sort of furnitures. definitely an eye opener. i guess you dont get to see this side of singapore that often. it was a tad bit scary cuz it was 2 in the morning and we didnt really know where we were going. but it was an adventure!! we took tons of photos! was crazily fun.

josh the poser. and josh high on something. i wonder what he took.
doesnt the top right photo just crack u up?! hilarious!

cool emo shots in the tunnel, except the middle ones. that was josh's spider man impersonation! haha..
ignore the subject.. i was the photographer and had to use the same "model" :P

i like this!
black and white always rocks! even with bad lighting.

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it's a girl thing
Part II

the fantastic girlfriends met up again. 3rd week in a row consecutive. it's amazing. we used to be so busy and could barely find time to meet. now it's almost a weekly thing. it's great. ups and downs, we've got it all covered. i can see it going a long way. no matter the circumstance, we always manage to make each other laugh and forget our worries. like what mae said, we all have our own llittle quirks, we're all different, yet similar at the same time. so we compliment each other, and that's what keeps us together! what can i say, i love you girls!

dinner was shanghai food agaiN! madness. i felt like i was in china. but at least it was crystal jade so wasnt too bad. it was so packed. because of the rain, we had to scuttle over to crown for starbucks. i bought a new pair of heels from pedder red! love it! and it was a great buy, 50% off!

complete
me, jas, mae, sharon, emme and shu hui!

best girls anyone could have for friends!

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it's a girl thing..
Part I

it was an awesome friday, despite the disgusting wet weather! completely guy free day and night! jas darling is back from aussie land! i missed u babe! caught up with angel len and her for lunch/tea at ding tai fung. crystal jade's still the best. and sweets at Toast was great! tons of photo taking, hours in the toilet doing i dunno what, giggles, and all squeezing into 1 changing room. crazy things, awesome time! i bought my topshop bag and i love it! :)

jas the aussie babe!

angel and jas

us at toast
love u girls!

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Friday, January 12, 2007

mind junkie

i sucessfully stayed home for like more than 24hrs. awesome. ive never been more bored in my life. i got bored with tv after 10mins, and i couldnt last longer than 20mins online. the extremely short attention span is killing me. so i spent half thetime stoning and thinking. again.

random thoughts today:
1. why won't the mambo songs in my head go away?! it's like there's a mini dj in there spinning music
2. why is my dream so real. and was it really u? or u? i can't figure out who it was.
3. i want a sewing machine. really want one. there's so many things i'll be able to make if ive got one!
4. how can some people be so insensitive and be so oblivious to things?
5. i vsited my own little world alot
6. I wonder what other people's world looks like. mine has tons of colours! and a chocolate river!
7. if someone were to write my life, like in Stranger Than Fiction, am i a tragedy or a comedy?
(the movie rocks by the way. one of the best i've seen so far!)
8. what is it like to completely lose the ability to control yourself?
9. i tried imgining my life like 3 years down the road and i cant think of anything. it's freaky
10. why hasnt anyone invented a chocolate river?!!

alright.. there were definitely tons more. but im sleepy. back to revisit my dream, and perhaps find out who was it that made me smile...

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Thursday, January 11, 2007

it's all a blur

i had the strangest dream, it all seemed like a blur. just like flashes of my sub conscious, flashes of the future perhaps. i believe in premonitions in dreams. very little of it though. it was happened to me a couple of times. freaky as it may seem, deja vu just messes with your mind.

last night's dream was sweet. perhaps for the fact that i was happy and probably on cloud nine. i cant say what it is, cuz if u tell your dream it wouldn't come true. but i can't quite figure out why it occured. all i remember is that you were in it. and u made me smile. it's odd that it was you. it's like one of the last person to think about. completely random and totally out of the blue. perhaps like all the coincidences, this is just another one. was it really you? or did i dream up some fictional character again? maybe i need to go back to sleep, and dream yet another dream. return to the where i've left of and figure things out. my dreams are always a blur, yet the feelings seem so real it's scary.

the subconscious state of mind is mysterious, yet luring at the same time.
just like a path down a dark street with only a lamp, revealing more with each step.

was it u?
or did i wish it was u?

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

My first closing!

it was just me and the 2 new girls si hui and jolyn! haha.. love them. we had so much fun laughing at everything! and we sold a vermonster!!!

Things that made me a happy girl that night:

Kel happened to be at cathay! havent seen him in quite some time and we were suppose to catch up.

and.. theoweee and her bestie came by too! which made things even more fuN!

theo the blondie!

josh's photo skills.. hmmm...

me sihui and jolyn!

u made work fun!

once a cam whore

always a cam whore! :)

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living the life

met up with the scgs girls for English High Tea at Goodwood Park again. it is always great to meet up. even if we have nothing planned. we could sit there for hours. no wonder they say scgs girls are all alike. these are the girls i grew up with, and these are the girls i'll wanna grow old with too. they're just awesome.

just like old days
silly antics, chocolates and laughter

endless conversations
memories much sought after

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more photo from micca!

peek-a-boo!

typical see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil

punishment!!

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

early friday night drinks

girlfriend's farewell dinner part 1. hv was exceptionally crowded. somehow, everyone knew everyone. weird. i wasnt that much in the mood too.

liang and theowooo!

josh
i like the colourful stripes

the darling girlfriend
i'll miss u
pon army la yea?! :P

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im freakin pissed and irritated, but i don't quite understand why. my mood's been horrible. and now im damn pissed off. but alot of things actually. alot of small stupid things. argh. i hate it. it's ust one of those days where u have to be happy. and if things go bit wrong, that's it. it's never been like that. hate the mood swings. really irritated with myself. why i put myself in such a vulnerable place, why i cant meet up to my own standards. pissed with people around me, for like no apparent reason. well actually there is. it's just silly. but it's unlike me to voice how i feel. oh well. it's over.

friday night at home's even more depressing. well i'm glad someone online made me a tad bit happier. guess it's just those days where u get extra angsty and irritated with the world. i don't get alot of things. i don't understand why things are this way too. and i don't know how it became this way. it's frustrating. i wish i was the one given the chance to leave. cuz the day that i can, i'll be happy and free. i really really wanna get away from everything. even if it means leaving the people i care about behind. i think that's how badly i need it. but why won't it come?! i wanna eel carefree and happy again. argh. it's the stupid mood talking.

im just pissed.
pissed at me.
pissed at you.

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Friday, January 05, 2007

i woke up this morning and wrote this:

i miss..

the sparkle in someone's eye,
the faint whiff of perfume,
the gentle brush of someone's hand,
the smile, coy and shy,

the silly childish games,
or starring into space,
endless conversations,
the ongoing chase.

the peace and serenity,
security and warmth.
butterflies in my tummy,
a bed of roses without torns.

i miss sitting by the beach,
enjoying the presence.
walking around aimlessly,
sharing my joy and sadness.

i miss having someone around,
hugs, kisses, holding hands and all,
but most importantly,
i don't miss you at all.

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Thursday, January 04, 2007

Fish & Co.

met up with cheryl and the guys for dinner. food was yummylicious! i miss Fish&Co.

yummylicious!

cheryl, all ready for mambo!

lawrence and braces!

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Counting down to 2007
New Year's Eve Uniform Party at Theo's

i went as...

an rj girl! cuz my sa uniform is with lenise, and angel could lend me hers! :) i love it!
im suprised i can fit too!
and tt's josh, in the Act Cute School uniform. how apt! :P

Class of 2006?!

all decked out in our school uniform! there was sji boys, mostly ij girls, an ac boy, a sa boy and me the rj girl!

my favourite shot of the night!

the jap steamboat was exceptionally yummy! and we had tons of drinks cuz everyone brought a bottle. i love the bailey's with caramel. everyone was too lazy to mix so we just drank it pure. but yummy! and Antonia's drinking card game was fun! reminiscence of silly old-school stuff! love it!

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

disorganized catharsis and greenish-purple veins

i was in the shower when i realized that the veins in my hands and vingers were so visible. all greenish and purplish. its as if blood is being pumped out and dripped out through my nails.

i guess you can say that is sort of the equivalent to being so drained mentally and emotionally that all your life is being sucked out of you. your body functions, but it's a hollow empty shell inside. things will always look good on the surface. but it's what's inside that matters. at least that's how i feel sometimes.

i dont quite understand how people make some assumptions so easily. if u write about some love emo shit, people will think youre in love. no i am not in love, but i sure do like to be. who else wouldnt?! and if u say or do something people mistake u for meaning something else. that's even worse. if i say you're cute, doesnt quite equates to i like you. i think every guy should understand that. i realy dont get why only girls understand this. is the lack of chromosone part of the explanation?

i'd like to cut to feel the pain,
watch the blood drip to feel the drain.
hear the screams to mask the deafening silence,
get high on weed to fight the strain.

coming back. a cab ride home reveals many. many thoughts many possibilities. but it has become impossible. many feelings, the rush of emotions. false hope always gets you high on adrenalin. it's definitely easy to see through me. doesnt need a genius to figure anyone out ayway. im sorry i hate to lie. because lying to someone means lying to yourself as well. and that's like tugging at the veins at the end of your finger tips.

there's always so much to let out. it's catharsis to its max. but somehow disorganized. i think ive cried enough in 2006. now the tears just wont come out. it's just the dull sullen pain. i dont know what from even. perhaps everything mash into one. im done getting hurt, too afraid and way to frgile. but yet the heart is deceptive. it longs and yearns for everything vulnerable and mysterious. hence frustration and dilemma. i guess you can tell im a pretty messy writer. or to even have the ability to call myself a writer in the first place. but the brains a maze. and so is the heart.

ive always longed for a day off. off from the whole entire world. i missed the days where i can just sit by the beach the entire day, stare into the waters and leave the world for a while. its like as if the waves comes crashing in and takes your burdens away. i always wanted to take a long and endless walk, through the unknown parts of singapore. or even just walking around the supermarket with someone. (it's really therapeutic. i can vouch for that) i wanted have a day before '06 came to a close. to revist everything that ive pushed so far down. sadly the day never came. and it doesnt seem to be nearing. and it's not easy to find someone who'll be able to sit and enjoy the stillness and presence. so.... oh well. guess it'll just have to wait.

rambling helps a bit for now.

there's tons of new year's eve photos yet to be posted. im so not in the mood.

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last mambo of 2006

girlfriend, the babe theo and josh and her friend came! it was damn fun! mambo music makes you happy!

theo darling

girlfriend
(you should stop assuming/thinking so much. u know what im talking about)

josh the guai kia?! rite..
more like josh the mambo ah-beng!

true blue mambo regulars daryl and jon! :)

girlfriend josh antonia and theo!

"somewhere in my heart im always dancin with you in the summer rain"

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